This is the future, the future. Your grandkids will be smoking this.

I seriously need to get my life on track. I have no idea what I want to do in the future, but the future is getting closer and closer. In 5 years Im gonna be like 30. Ugh. My father used to pressure me so much on figuring out a goal, a career early so I can work on it while I'm young. Clearly I've listened -_-

It's not like I haven't been trying, just probably not trying hard enough. Every time I get an idea it all goes to the waste side. Math teacher, computer programmer, artist, videogame designer, music producer, landscape architect. I get to a point where it just dies, the drive to want something. I don't know whats wrong with me but this is getting out of hand and I think I have to take a stand somewhere. So I've been thinking on getting my head straight by the summer. By then whatever it is my insane mind decides at the moment might be a desired career, I'm going to take classes in the fall for it. If its a bust, oh well, at least I tried and can move on. I am at the point where sitting around in these jobs of no future and just trying to figure it out on my own isn't going to work. If I at least get my foot in something, and it does or doesn't work out, I can live with that and keep trying.

Talking to my friend today has gotten me in a weird mood where I am excited a little about the possibilities of trying this out and also bummed about my sad wasted past. Sigh. Taking action is the best course I guess. Hope I don't change my mind. This year I am trying my best to concentrate on things that I usually would procrastinate over. I am the essence of Sloth, deadliest of sins. (actually its Pride haha)