Gotta let this shit out somewhere, and I guess that's what this site is for eh?

The tension in my household is on the verge of epic explosions. Very scary really. Today hearing my father, the most calm patient man I know (and that has rubbed on me), swore my mother and left me alone at the lunch table today. It was kinda funny but more Ughful. I don't think they will ever break up. But the atmosphere is upsetting. For example, I didn't do anything and nothing was aimed my way (this time) but I felt like something was extremely wrong and I got out the house asap. This year+ of dealing with my mother's depressed state is really starting to effect everyone's actions and emotions. We are all getting less and less tolerable with each other it seems.

Coming back was a good and bad thing. But hopefully it will all work out in the end. Just a tad bummed out at the moment over the recent interactions. Not feeling comfortable at home is the worse. I plan to move out soon, at least by summer. Most likely taking that new open spot in mike and sarah's apt. But also don't want to leave when things are at such an array. I feel like there's not much I can do though. So bleh, I say. Bleh.